What a year this month has been...

Here’s to everyone out there who is doing the best they can - Your best? #GoodEnough

Honestly - March was a lot. We started the month with a trip to Sick Kids for a steroid pulse because “somebody’s” lung function was down <hard eye-roll>. Did it trigger me? Yes. Was I cool as a cucumber? Also yes. Just kidding…not really. But I didn’t spiral completely cause this is just our life now…

And I swear. It felt like the Universe took it as a dare. As if I was handling it too well and, in response, set a challenge. So instead of just navigating my normal anxiety and balancing full time work and countless other things - including the onset of football season, a rapidly growing - and non-stop eating teenager - and a competitive cheer schedule - I was handed the unique opportunity to navigate a pandemic that is not only highly contagious but also deadly to those with underlying lung conditions.

Cool.

That said, March was also pretty fucking great.

I sent out a newsletter with a promise - nay, a commitment - that I would finally stand up this fucking website. I was invited to be part of the first Women in Leadership Podcast at TD. I was a panelist at the first every All Women L.E.A.D event celebrating #IWD2020. I kicked off a new book club project called #TDReads and I finally started a YouTube channel.

All wins.

In some ways, March got the better of me.

The website didn’t progress. I got sucked into what can ONLY be described as a vortex of pandemic planning activity. I neglected my body and my health and topped off the last two weeks by giving myself an ear infection as a result of having my fucking ear buds inserted in my right ear for upwards of 12 hours a day for 15 days straight. To be clear - I do NOT recommend this. I give ear infections zero stars.

BUT - in the spirit of miracle hunting - I think i got some really good wins on the board.

I still held the TD Reads book club despite it falling in the midst of the shit storm outlined above. Was I at my best? No. Did it happen because the organizers and I refused to let this pandemic distract us from the critical importance of reading and self improvement? HARD YES.

And today I mark the second win - and while it may be a day late and a dollar short - it still counts. Today I am hitting 'publish’ on a website that probably has broken links and un-optimized photos and absolutely no tie-ins to SEO or advertising revenue or anything else.

And guess what? IDGAF.

I survived March by #MiracleHunting. Looking for the good and the benevolent amidst all the drama and panic. And because of that mindset - even if I didn’t keep it all the time - I found enough to keep me fuelled.

So as I enter into April and out of a month that felt like a year, I have decided on a new motto: #GoodEnough

This website? Good enough. My efforts at homeschooling? Good enough. My attempts to balance work and life and health and wellness? Well…I’ve done the best I can and tomorrow is a new day.

Tonight I am popping a bottle of bubbly (I might have already) to celebrate taking 48 consecutive hours off work. I will toast my amazing husband who has carried more than his share over the past few weeks and who is leaving TD and starting a new role at Canada Life on Monday. I am celebrating the sun and being outdoors and being healthy and getting to have Facetime and WhatsApp group chats. I am going to toast everyone who has reached out to check on me and for the neighbours across the street who braved Costco today to get groceries for a half a dozen families. I am going to toast ALL the miracles and head into April knowing that we are all doing the best we can.

And that is #GoodEnough